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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

What brain tumor?

I called home from the office this morning to check with Susan and see if she was feeling better. She’d had a few symptoms return after a weeks-long absence and was feeling tired and discouraged when I left the house. By mid-morning, she’d slept some more and was feeling well. When I called, we had one of those fluid, lucid conversations that are becoming more commonplace and lead me to wonder, “What brain tumor?” Susan is clearly in the best shape she’s been since last year at this time when hydrocephalus set in and set off a season of infections, fractures, illness, and hemorrhage. Her improvement over the past 3-4 months has been remarkable – and most welcome, since it’s ushered in a level of normalcy to our household that we’d missed for a long time. This morning’s episode reminded both of us how little she’s been ill recently and alerted me that complications could interrupt our lives again at any time. We remain, as ever, squarely in the Lord’s hands and thankful for Susan’s healing, strength, and restoration.

We had a conversation at church recently with some friends who have been faithful in support and prayer for Susan. A typical 5-10 minute chat involves the weather, the movie you saw, the team you like or what the kids are doing, so it’s not ordinary for a person to speak of death and dying in the span of a casual conversation. But when Kristen shared that she’s been encouraged by Susan’s faith, Susan responded honestly in what’s become a normal (but not too frequent) acceptance of our situation. She said something like she couldn’t have expected all that’s happened, but she’s ready to go home to the Lord whenever he’s ready for her. She believes God has a purpose and work for what remains of her life on earth, but when it’s time to go to heaven, it will be far better than being here.

Her comments demonstrated Susan’s peace with her circumstances, her trust in whatever the Lord’s plans are for her and the glorious confidence she has in her future. I couldn’t help but note the odd contrast of her words considering how well she’s doing, but I also cannot imagine a greater gift than God’s perfect love that casts out all fear (1 John 4:18). It’s just like our good and sovereign Lord to solve a problem for us that way – if he doesn’t remove the circumstance that’s giving us trouble, he’ll take away its ability to trouble us.

Paul writes, “Where O death, is your victory? Where O death, is your sting?” The passage he quotes in 1 Cor 15:55 is from Hosea 13:14,
“I will ransom them from the power of the grave; I will redeem them from death.
Where, O death, are your plagues? Where, O grave, is your destruction?”
Put another way, the Inez Andrews gospel song says, “Lord, you don’t have to move my mountain, but give me the strength to climb.” I just love that Susan is living it.

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