Feeling fine

In spite of occasional spells of tiredness or pain, Susan feels well these days.  She’s been diligent about eating properly, so her blood sugar level has measured well below 150 for most of the past few weeks.  It’s amazing to test her glucose after breakfast when she has a bowl of cereal once a week instead of her usual eggs – cereal sends the level higher and proves the benefit of low-carb eating.
 

In discussing results of the bladder pacemaker during our follow-up urology appointment, Dr Kim decided the test was successful. Even so, Susan probably won’t get the permanent device since its manufacturer has not approved it when having MRIs, a frequent event for her.  When the issue came up just before surgery, I wondered why we were doing the procedure at all and why we didn’t know about the conflict earlier.  The company rep said there’s no known problem with the device, but it had not been specifically approved for use with MRI.  The trial device posed no MRI risk and would provide good information, so we went ahead.  Since then, Susan’s specialists have been chatting about the trade-offs; but I suspect we’ll be safe and pass on the permanent device.  She’s doing okay right now in that department anyway.
 

She’ll have an infectious disease follow-up next week and her scheduled brain tumor check-up after Labor Day. We’re ever in the Lord’s hands.
 

I often say Susan is the sweetest person I know. She handles her illness bravely, repels the urge to complain or have a sour attitude, and is always concerned about the welfare of others, especially our family. Her desire to do things right and obey the rules makes her a gracious patient.  Compliant by nature and having lost a good deal of independence, she sometimes even asks if it’s okay to hold her fork in her other hand.  My Susan is just so sweet. 
 

Last night as I soaked in her adorability, I told her again that I love her. She echoed her feelings to me.  Then she said she’s become more aware of feeling surrounded by the love of others, more than she has before, and that she’s feeling loved by people who never may have expressed it before. I agreed that lots of people love her and are showing it in many of wonderful ways. We noted the paradox of an illness like GBM – that it connects you more deeply to others than when life was normal and busy and overlooked.  We agreed that if cancer creates more meaningful relationships, that’s not a bad thing.